Tuesday, November 5, 2013
Happy 5th Birthday MJ
Five years ago today…
“We are ready to start pushing!” The doctor announced before she briskly walked out of the room to get my nurse and prepare for the delivery.
I turned to your father and I will never forget the look in his eyes – a perfect blend of joy, fear, anxiety, and excitement that mirrored my own thoughts. He gently grabbed my hand and gave it a soft squeeze.. “It’s go time!” he exclaimed, knowing that in a few minutes our lives would change forever.
And then, “IT’S A BOY!” …You came into this world and a love I have never known consumed me- it was the most natural, amazing, indescribable feeling I’ve ever felt. In an instant I loved you with all of my heart. On November 5, 2008 you gave me the most precious gift I have ever received – the love a mother has for her child.
You have grown into such an amazing little boy. Your daddy and I could not be more proud of the person you have become. You truly love life and embrace every day with an innocent and unbridled joy I pray you never lose.
You are one of those people that lights up a room the moment you step foot in it. People are drawn to you – I believe they can feel the kindness in your heart and your ability to love everyone. Yes, you can be full of drama, and yes you have bad days, but that is what shapes and molds you – not what defines you.
I admire so much about you but what I admire most is the way you have whole-heartedly embraced being a big brother to Ty and Catelin… I know you will continue to be an incredible role model for them.
I wish I could freeze frame time. I dread the day when my kisses will no longer heal all of your boo-boos, the day when blowing me kisses in front of your classmates isn’t “cool,” the day you realize I am not Superwoman and I definitely don’t have the answer to everything. And yet I love watching you grow and become your own person.
This morning I sang Happy Birthday to you through my tears…
"Mommy, are you sad?” you asked.
“No, baby. I am happy; I am proud of you and I love you so much. I just can’t believe you are five.” I replied.
“I know, I’m getting big. But please don’t cry mommy.” You wrap you arms tight around my neck. “I love you to infinity and beyond.”
“To infinity and beyond.” I replied.
A love that was born five years ago today.